La Respuesta

I have had plenty of time to think of the answer and frankly I have had very little time by myself to even think about being lonely. 

At various times in my life I have felt very, very lonely...for example while I was living in Montana. I found myself struggling with feeling isolated and without a support system while living in a small town were everyone knew everyone's story. Perhaps having "my story" quickly published on stone by the town added to my struggle of feeling really connected because everyone already "knew" who I was. Other events occurred adding to my lonliness which I will not discuss in this entry, but in that particular point in my journey I felt as though I was flying solo. 

The first morning I woke up in Mexico City I felt connected. Even though I could not speak the language and I did not know a single person I knew this place was for me...in that moment. I returned to Montana in March with the goal that I would be in Mexico by August.  I have been gifted in Mexico with great friends whom I dearly love with all my soul. They encourage me to grow as a person.  They have not replaced the people I have left behind but have added to the list of those I cherish. I think my age also has something to do with me not feeling apart from people because I have come to realize on a physical level that we all are struggling in the same battle and like a tug-o-war it is easier to stay out of the mud if you have a little help. It is rare to find an enemy unless you are looking for one and that does not exclude searching for enemies within yourself. So there are many people out there who are willing to help if they are asked. Next time you are feeling lonely or struggling put my theory to the test and ask me...