Da Finer Me

Just a few thoughts on my mind that I wanted to share. I had a conversacion last night and the idea of redefining ones life came up. This morning during my workout this word "redefine" just would not leave my mind. Yesterday I thought that my move to Mexico and the various other changes I have initiated in my life have redefined my character...who I be. While thinking of myself as being redefined this morning I had the feeling of being categorized and stuck. Who am I? A student, an expat, a guera, a woman, a sensitive person? These are the activities or characteristics that I identify with. I think I have found comfort in my definitions in the past because it maintains a sense of security in life, a false certainty that I actually know what tomorrow may provide me. 

Redefining to me means the process of creating a finished definition and I am not ready to stop growing. I am not finished. So maybe the word or idea that works for me is dedefine. Rather than creating more borders of definition in my life, dedefining will allow me a little more room to grow and share myself with others. I do not have the answers for all, but for myself I find my defined borders begin to fade when I connect with others and when I observe in the moment how I react to this connection. I dedefine myself when I allow myself to confront my fears.

I think there is a place for me to belong and identify with ideas, groups, etc... and at the same time shatter the boundaries. For me theses worlds can not exist alone and separate from one another.