silently exhale to a quieter place.
it is a full moon today. as i sit here i am viewing life from a different reality than the reality i experienced when i opened my eyes this morning.
it is a full moon today. as i sit here i am viewing life from a different reality than the reality i experienced when i opened my eyes this morning.
just a side note my shift key is broken so endure the lower case beginnings and limited punctuation.
the system theories course with dr. ray becvar began today. i have been sitting in a room questioning reality as i view it from my context and discovering who 'i be' within the context that i know and how that context changes upon encountering another.
lunch began at 12. i went home and walked the dogs in the park, later stopping to buy a couple of tacos from hola's on the corner near my house. i was eating my huevos y arroz taco on the street and wandered to the corner. i noticed several police cars and officers standing in the street. turning the corner i saw a man laying in the street and he was dead, partly covered by a sheet. i was shocked and saddened. it is strange because i could not have predicted my reaction to the event. the man had just exited this reality as we understand it and his non functioning body was so close to my breathing and blood pumping body. he was a construction worker that fell from the top story of a building. writing about this is bringing tears to my eyes and my heart is aching. i wonder about his life, did he have a family or a partner that he has left behind. i am not really sure what else to write about this. today has left me speechless. i know it is an uncomfortable subject for some so feel free to pass up the need to comment in order to fix something because nothing is broken. just shaken, moved and saddened by the natural process we must all eventually experience. it is interesting to me that i would see death in such a real way for the first time in a country that is so open and accepting of death.
lunch began at 12. i went home and walked the dogs in the park, later stopping to buy a couple of tacos from hola's on the corner near my house. i was eating my huevos y arroz taco on the street and wandered to the corner. i noticed several police cars and officers standing in the street. turning the corner i saw a man laying in the street and he was dead, partly covered by a sheet. i was shocked and saddened. it is strange because i could not have predicted my reaction to the event. the man had just exited this reality as we understand it and his non functioning body was so close to my breathing and blood pumping body. he was a construction worker that fell from the top story of a building. writing about this is bringing tears to my eyes and my heart is aching. i wonder about his life, did he have a family or a partner that he has left behind. i am not really sure what else to write about this. today has left me speechless. i know it is an uncomfortable subject for some so feel free to pass up the need to comment in order to fix something because nothing is broken. just shaken, moved and saddened by the natural process we must all eventually experience. it is interesting to me that i would see death in such a real way for the first time in a country that is so open and accepting of death.
i think today is the last full moon of the equinox which represents the end and the end always signifies the start of a new beginning. goodnight
5 comments:
Wow. That is a really strange thing to walk into. i'm always grateful for events like that. we're so insulated from the reality of the temporary nature of our lives. things like that put life into perspective.
it reminds me of a conversation i was having with my younger sister a couple of months ago. i said something like "everyone on the planet eventually dies." and she responded with "well, not every..." she stopped herself from saying something pretty stupid. to which i responded, "yeah, everyone dies. everyone dies alone, too." strange that she had to think twice about such a basic fact of life. sounds like a state of mortality denial.
It was always interesting to me in my Spanish classes in high school because we talked about the dia de muerto. Senor Compton was very good about teaching us about the culture along with the language. Hope your week is going well so far.
Death is just one breath away, and this fact is greatly amplified when we observe it suddenly, unexpectedly, and up close. You are a very compassionate woman, Michele. Caring about the world and everyone or every thing in it seems to come naturally to you. I am touched that you would take time to empathize with and reflect on this person's life and those connected to him. Beautiful analogy at the end of your blog. Thanks for being you.
I miss your blogs. Hope you are in the mood soon and have the time to post. Thanks for the pictures. I look at them every day.
Love,
Mom
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